tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-71552587141337757362024-02-07T04:35:18.674+02:00Le nuage solitaireCasandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.comBlogger17125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-35626516737112059042011-06-29T00:41:00.004+03:002011-06-29T01:04:59.957+03:00In trenIn fiecare luni imi dau intalnire cu mine pe peronul garii de vest, de unde iau personalul de la 8 fara 20 catre Bucuresti.<br />Nu ma grabesc nicaieri si timpul asta pe care il fur lumiii si mi-l rezerv doar mie e mai degraba castigat decat pierdut.<br />Il petrec citind o carte care parca nu-si are locul in alta parte sau pur si simplu urmarindu-mi gadurile cum aluneca pe deasupra nuantelor de verde din jurul sinelor si celor cateva vechi garnituri de tren uitate sub rugina si imbratisate de verdeata.<br />Destul de rar cat sa nu devina rutina, dar destul de des cat sa aiba continuitate, timpul asta petrecut in afara timpului imi aduce aminte de o cautare nedefinita, de acea parte din minte care cauta raspunsuri ale caror intrebari nu le cunoaste.<br />De fiecare data cand trenul se opreste, ma opresc si eu sa privesc lumina apusului care se strecoara printre frunze si printre firele de iarba.<br />Sunt putini calatori, iar undeva pe la jumatatea drumului nu se mai aude decat scartaitul discret al vagonului si zgomotul vantului.<br />E singurul loc care imi apartine in totalitate, pe care il pastrez cu egoism doar pentru mine, suspendat undeva intre Ploiesti si Bucuresti intr-o curgere de clipe pentru care timpul nu are sens.<br />O ora si 20 de minute mai tarziu, imi las gandurile aici, in spatiul in care o sa le regasesc peste o saptamana si ma reintorc in realitatea care incepe pe peronul garii de nord.Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-91787614628814670422011-06-14T12:58:00.003+03:002011-06-14T13:27:03.947+03:0023Just sit there still for 7 minutes, with your lips following the words that you have known by heart for the last 4 years. With your mind wandering, you realize that with each day you know more and less about yourself. Why are you writing this in english? Why are you writing this at all? Is it your mind or only your fingers typing? <br /><br /><iframe width="425" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/0085_FUpics?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe><br /><br />Something inside is breaking while you press replay. Your mind flies away like a kite that has been stolen away by the wind. Are you free or just lost?Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-40396565619719993612011-03-07T22:07:00.004+02:002011-03-07T22:40:58.953+02:00Intrebare(Disclaimer: textul de mai jos nu are la baza o documentare prealabila, ci reprezinta doar un moment de meditatie. In cazul in care ma insel stiintific in vreun fel va rog sa invocati principiul mai bine sa fiu prost cateva minute decat sa nu intreb si sa raman prost o viata si sa ma luminati:) )<br /><br />Ma indreptam astazi catre un orasel prahovean nu tocmai primitor. Primul lucru pe care l-am observat la microbuzul la fel de neprimitor cu care am ajuns acolo a fost usa ruginita care arata de parca ar fi fost lipita acolo cu scotch. Tot cadrul imi dadea senzatia unei lumi paralele, nu mai buna sau mai rea, ci doar straina. <br />La un moment dat in timpul calatoriei am observat cum un fir de par mi-a alunecat pe podeaua microbuzului si m-a incercat o senzatie ciudata de disconfort la ideea de a imi abandona o parte din ADN in aceasta alta dimensiune. Stiu, suna a snobism, dar nu am gandit-o nici pe departe in felul asta, ci mai degraba ca pe o intruziune intr-un scenariu stiintifico-fantastic. <br />De aici pana la a ma intreba ce as simti fata de o clona de a mea, daca as avea una, nu au fost decat cativa pasi. <br />Trebuie sa specific ca nu am nici o parere definitiva vis-a-vis de clonarea umana, ci doar imi pun urmatoarele intrebari: <br />~ Daca o persoana clonata pornind de la ADN-ul meu ar avea aceasi anatomie ca si mine, oare ar gandi exact la fel si ar avea aceasi personalitate cu a mea?<br />~ Clar, raspunsul e nu pentru ca nu ar creste in exact acelasi context in care am crescut eu, deci daca as avea doua clone, de aceasi varsta, care ar creste in acelasi mediu, cat de diferite ar fi ca personalitate?<br />~ De unde ma intreb, oare clonarea ar putea sa dovedeasca existenta sufletului sau sa ne arate in ce procent suntem corpul nostru, in ce procent mediul in care am trait si daca exista si o a treia componenta care sa ne defineasca eul?Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-18871774282352837442010-12-11T23:15:00.002+02:002010-12-11T23:21:44.958+02:00Draga Mos CraciunTe rog nu te speria. In camera mea de camin nu am televizor, deci nu am vazut si nici macar nu stiu daca au inceput sau nu sa se difuzeze filmele clasice de Craciun, stii tu alea incarcate de clisee pe care le-am vazut cu totii de cel putin 10 ori. Asa ca poti sta linistit, nu am de gand sa-ti cer pace mondiala, sa-ti vorbesc despre spiritul Craciunului sau sa ma plang ca sarbatoarea asta a inceput sa-si piarda sensul. Dimpotriva, inca imi plac ceaiul cu scrotisoara, mirosul de brad si de portocale, luminitele din oras si culoarea aia speciala pe care o are cerul in noptile de decembrie. Ca in fiecare an ma fascineaza sa ma joc cu beteala din magazine si, la fel ca in celelalte 21 de ierni, o sa merg de Craciun la bunici. Probabil ca asta e singurul lucru care a ramas neschimbat, singura constanta pe care o am.<br />Si daca tot am eliminat din lista filozofia abstracta o sa crezi ca iti cer ca tot omul normal sa imi aduci o jucarie. Sa stii ca gresesti, sunt mare acum si nu mai astept jucarii. Nu ca nu mai imi plac, ci am trecut deja de primul meu job si am inceput sa mi le cumpar singura. Nu mai departe de saptamana trecuta mi-am cumparat o sabie din carrefour cu care as fi marsaluit cu draga inima pana in P6, sa le-o arat baietilor daca nu as fi fost suparata pe Sabin.<br />Nu, iti scriu pentru ca de Craciun vreau o scrisoare, scrisoarea aia, stii tu care, pe care o astept de doua luni. M-am plictisit sa primesc mailuri, au inceput sa ma enerveze emoticonurile de pe mess, iar despre mesajele de pe facebook nici nu mai vorbesc. Vreau o scrisoare adevarata, pe hartie. 8Nu prea imi pasa daca o sa fie cu pixul, cu stiloul sau cu creionul, ma intereseaza doar sa fie scrisa de mana.<br />Si pentru ca am gasit in camera video filmuletul de atunci de pe plaja cand eram singura fata cu pielea alba si buclele sarate, o sa-ti spun un <a href="http://www.trilulilu.ro/casij/3a8555424af8ac">secret</a>.Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-31667000553359483032010-08-25T14:22:00.002+03:002010-08-25T14:31:31.520+03:00Departe<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_DBfNWepQr3A/THT9jwOZWVI/AAAAAAAAAFE/eZPcDwljBgQ/s1600/mare.jpg"><img style="float: right; margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; cursor: pointer; width: 200px; height: 158px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_DBfNWepQr3A/THT9jwOZWVI/AAAAAAAAAFE/eZPcDwljBgQ/s200/mare.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5509307034863491410" 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<br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">Se apropie toamna. Ciudat, inca e cald, inca e devreme, dar o simt in zborul pescarusilor. E o tristete vaga, o culoare mai fada, o senzatie ciudata de irosire a zilelor si a noptilor. O schimbare de stil, de continut? Totusi ceva ramane. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">Azi noapte L-am visat dezamagit. E a doua oara. Mi-e constiinta patata de un ceva nedefinit. Sa fie timpul care tot trece?</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Visez tot mai ciudat si tot mai mult oameni pe care abia daca i-am cunoscut. Imi pare ca mintea mi se reseteaza, ca trece in revista si trece mai departe. Mangai tabloul si gandul mi se agata inexplicabil de detalii nesemnificative.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">De aici de sus cuprind cu privirea doar marea, aud doar valurile si pescarusii, iar restul lumii se sterge si se pierde in trecut.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Tot mai des ma trezesc cu senzatia ca ceva lipseste, ceva ce e acolo si ma bantuie, ca amintirea de neatins dintr-un deja-vu.<span style=""> </span>Am inceput sa te uit.</p> Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-39668903744047643392010-08-16T14:13:00.003+03:002010-08-16T14:39:26.497+03:00Sunt inca aiciO.N. cu dBM - Sunt inca aici<br /><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dymN-cwsQRZBsql-SwuVzyc-xNf-XJTQxvy2XgcC--IVWatyxfeVgGStFyqaPRNv2JSGN_rX8-JqbuWAx9Wdg' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe>Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-84621902165695054032010-07-22T12:03:00.003+03:002010-07-22T12:55:38.124+03:00CunoastereImi simt corpul desprinzandu-se de mine si il simt cum se cutremura in jurul meu ca un turn prea inalt din cuburi de lemn, care sta sa se prabuseasca. <br />Il parasesc incet, ridicandu-ma si cand ajung la tavan, imi aduc aminte vag de ei. Imi pare rau, n-am apucat sa-mi iau la revedere, dar ii uit repede, in timp ce secundele se intind tot mai mult. <br />Ma indrept catre un infinit albastru, dar in timp ce plutesc spre el, il vad departandu-se tot mai mult. O greutate ma trage in jos, o umbra imi creste peste aripi si nu mai sunt aceeasi. <br /><br /><br />Deschid ochii si ma trezesc in camera mea.Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-4660148273236913262010-05-31T01:08:00.003+03:002010-05-31T01:15:33.583+03:00Marie CurieAm gasit <a href="http://www.elistmania.com/juice/10_inventors_killed_by_their_own_inventions/">aici</a> urmatorul text despre Marie Curie, text din care m-a impresionat ultima fraza:<br /><br />"Ever wondered where the word ‘Polonium’ came from? Well, it came from a Polish physicist and chemist and Nobel Prize winner Marie Curie who named her newly discovered chemical after her native country. Ever wondered what happened to this discoverer of Polonium, Radium and Theory of Radioactivity? She died on July 4, 1934, from aplastic anemia, as a result of exposure to radiation after working continuously in a small enclosed shed without any safety measures because radiation’s danger were not well understood at that time. <span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">To add to the misery, following her female instincts, she had carried test tubes containing radioactive isotopes in her pocket being mesmerized by the ‘pretty blue-green light’ that the substances gave off in the dark</span>. "<br /><br />Mi se pare tare dragut si absolut induiosator felul in care o femeie ramane tot femeie chiar si daca e om de stiinta.Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-57024574690867622942010-03-15T00:42:00.003+02:002010-03-15T00:56:34.058+02:00NightswimmingImi imaginez o plasa de paianjen perfecta in care sunt prinsi zeci de fluturi albastri. Deodata plasa se rupe si fluturii zboara fiecare in alta directie. Asa arata mintea mea, invadata de ganduri care zboara haotic, numai ca doar a doua parte a imaginii o reprezinta. Incercarile mele fara vlaga de a-mi fixa gandurile intr-o retea complexa au fost mereu zadarnice. <br />Inca sunt neterminata si probabil ca e mai bine asa. Si mai probabil, ar trebui sa fac eforturi de a ascunde asta, la fel ca toti ceilalti care desi par a avea o directie, presupun ca sunt la fel de neterminati ca si mine. Desi ar fi calea mai usoara, efortul de a-mi construi o masca m-ar incetini. <br />Am incercat sa tin un jurnal, dar n-a iesit mare lucru: <br />„Ma blochez in fata foii albe de hartie pe care vreau sa o transform in oglinda. Catre cine scriu? Sentimentul singuratatii absolute ma copleseste si ma sufoca. Nevoia de a ma adresa, macar fictiv, unei persoane exterioare mie pentru ca gandurile mele sa capete sens ma face vulnerabila.”<br />Am nevoie sa ma exprim. Stangaci, gresit si jenant, dar am nevoie. Curajul imi lipseste de cele mai multe ori. <br />Zilele trecute, un zid m-a intrebat ce mi-ar spune copilul care eram daca ar sta de vorba cu mine. I-am raspuns „nu te mai recunosc”. Am mintit artistic, ca sa para mai tragic, mai cutremurator, dar nu stiu cat de departe e adevarul. Depinde la ce ora ma intrebi. Dimineata e adevarat. Noaptea, cand toti ceilalti adorm si imi pierd controlul si nevoia de a ma cenzura, sunt tot eu, doar mai mare. Poate de asta nu pot sa adorm, doar trebuie sa si fiu candva.Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-34785227168010633072009-10-26T13:12:00.005+02:002009-10-26T14:25:59.516+02:00RenuntareDe la un punct in sus, infinitul devine atat de mare incat Totul si Nimicul se confunda.<br /><br /> ***<br />Iluzia puterilor mele supranaturale s-a spulberat in fata unui zid mut.<br /><br />Sunt momente in care vointa ta nu mai conteaza, oricat de mare ar fi.<br />Sunt momente in care oricat de "eu" ti-ai spune, trebuie sa te asezi cuminte si sa privesti pe altii jucand rolurile decisive.<br />Sunt momente in care te descoperi pe tine ca fiinta supusa unor limite si trebuie sa inveti sa accepti asta.<br /><br />Am atatea sa-ti spun incat tac.<br />Am atatea sa-ti scriu incat pun pixul jos si arunc cele cateva randuri cu care am inceput.<br /> ***<br /><br />Deosebirea e ca Nimicul ramane necunoscut.Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-86175814686603782942009-09-28T20:51:00.001+03:002009-09-28T20:54:39.746+03:00Vise interzise<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/X9QKaHZEeEY&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x3a3a3a&color2=0x999999"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/X9QKaHZEeEY&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x3a3a3a&color2=0x999999" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-34702612645002435662009-09-25T23:11:00.001+03:002009-09-25T23:11:58.463+03:00CercuriSub soarele inceputului de toamna, ma regasesc schimbata, fara sa stiu daca ma maturizez sau doar imbatranesc. Ma plimb singura pe strazi si prin parcuri in timp ce mintea mea se plimba in propriul abis si realizez ca de atatia ani ma invart in acelasi cerc, ascult aceleasi intrebari, in forme diferite, in timp ce sinele meu se ascunde in umbra, undeva in centru, departe de mine.<br />E ca atunci cand pleci de la niste ecuatii si te joci cu ele incercand sa ajungi la un rezultat, iar tocmai cand crezi ca esti pe drumul cel bun iti dai seama ca rezultatul tau nu e altceva decat ecuatia de la care ai plecat.<br />Cumva am obosit si as vrea sa ma despart de mine pentru o vreme, sa pasesc cateva clipe in afara drumului circular pe care pasii mei l-au adancit in atatia ani si sa ma privesc din afara cu alti ochi.Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-66402727240687605882009-09-21T10:56:00.001+03:002009-09-21T10:56:12.766+03:00...<br /> <object height='46' width='448'><param value='http://embed.trilulilu.ro/audio/casij/d847660915854a.swf' name='movie'/><param value='true' name='allowFullScreen'/><param value='always' name='allowscriptaccess'/><embed height='46' width='448' allowfullscreen='true' allowscriptaccess='always' type='application/x-shockwave-flash' src='http://embed.trilulilu.ro/audio/casij/d847660915854a.swf'/></object><br/><strong>Regina Spektor - The Call</strong><br/><a title='Muzica' href='http://www.trilulilu.ro/audio/Muzica'>Asculta mai multe audio Muzica</a> <br /> Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-5726732454636371882009-08-06T13:32:00.001+03:002009-08-06T13:41:12.585+03:00Vreau......sa ma plimb pe strazi la nesfarsitCasandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-42869610276246346502009-06-27T20:13:00.000+03:002009-06-27T20:14:45.998+03:00In (doi) timp(i)Am descoperit azi o <a href="http://www.last.fm/user/casij/library/loved">pagina</a> de istorie.<br />Nu te obosi, n-ai sa stii sa o citesti. Nici versurile, nici ritmul n-or sa te ajute. Doar eu stiu ce inseamna fiecare melodie. Si fiecare inseamna ceva.<br />Ai observat vreodata cat se aseamana muzica si parfumul? Ambele te arunca direct in trecut.<br />Poate intr-o zi o sa am curajul sa le ascult in ordinea cronologica in care apar in lista. Astazi mi-e frica. Nu stiu exact de ce. Poate mi-e teama sa nu trezesc demoni care dorm. Sau poate ma tem ca deschizand cutia timpului amintirile sa nu zboare si sa ma lase goala. E la fel ca atunci cand gasesti parfumul cuiva drag ratacindu-ti in par sau pe haine si te temi sa-l respiri adanc ca nu cumva sa-l consumi. Sau sunt singura care se teme de asta?Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-67191714151853188782008-12-31T18:54:00.003+02:002008-12-31T19:24:14.141+02:00To win some or learn someAm incercat de sute de ori sa trag linia si sa adun tot anul care a trecut in cateva cuvinte care se incapataneaza sa nu apara. Stau iar in fata unei pagini albe si tot ce pot sa spun e ca a fost cel mai plin an pe care l-am trait din '88 pana acum, cel mai intens, cel mai extrem si la capatul lui pot sa spun cel mai bun de pana acum. Cel mai greu de pana acum (si asta o spun ca pe un lucru bun), cel cu cele mai multe <span style="font-style: italic;">prima oara</span> decat tot restul anilor dinaintea lui, un an in care am fost mai jos decat am fost vreodata si mai sus decat am fost vreodata, un an care m-a schimbat atat de mult ca nici nu mai stiu cine eram la inceputul lui, un an in care am invatat sa ma privesc in ochi si sa-mi spun adevarul oricat de rau ar durea, in care am atins infintul pentru o clipa, in care am inteles cum sa nu ma mai tem de nimic, dar inca nu am invatat asta.<br />Pe scurt, un an din care nu regret nimic si in orice extrema as fi fost, tot ce a contat a fost ca am trait-o si ca a fost cat mai departe de mijloc.<br />La multi ani si orice vreti voi de la ei. Mie nu-mi pasa, multi sau putini, buni sau rai, imi doresc doar sa-i traiesc la fel de intens ca pe cel care se incheie astazi.Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155258714133775736.post-68042625297466428752008-12-26T23:47:00.001+02:002008-12-26T23:53:16.769+02:0025 decembrie<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhztje0cw5ojDxTGo4eaBe7iMaYTG95WVcREKZ0Pbb84Lreg4bNczn0bQ3lLmfrq7DrdSueO2HtRHYz6-wxnpaqtW5Bsb1Sc1E8o-d6TWgw0WABXxBSlATolEtT9gp0xdjprPzuTAk9Be4/s1600-h/Blue_Is_The_Colour_Of_Peace_by_Rob234111.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 200px; height: 133px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhztje0cw5ojDxTGo4eaBe7iMaYTG95WVcREKZ0Pbb84Lreg4bNczn0bQ3lLmfrq7DrdSueO2HtRHYz6-wxnpaqtW5Bsb1Sc1E8o-d6TWgw0WABXxBSlATolEtT9gp0xdjprPzuTAk9Be4/s200/Blue_Is_The_Colour_Of_Peace_by_Rob234111.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5284152290088718594" border="0" /></a><br />10..9..8..7..6..<br />muzica urca in mine, simt cum mainile mele si piciorul drept s-au incordat, aproape dintr-o vointa independeta de a mea<br />5..4..3..2..verde<br />fug, cu acceleratia apasata pana la podea. in timp ce fac efortul sa-mi deschid ochii, mana mea schimba viteza si orasul curge in jurul meu.<br />8:30, seara de Craciun. la 70 km/h am o usoara senzatie de plutire. bulevardul e aproape pustiu. e deja prea tarziu pentru unii, inca prea devreme pentru altii. suntem doar eu si drumul.<br />8:30, seara de Craciun. am fugit de acasa acum o jumatate de ora. ma certasem cu Serban. tot aerul din casa ma apasa. ma duc nicaieri si peste o jumatate de ora ma voi intoarce acasa.<br />pentru o ora ma abandonez fortei centrifuge care ma apasa tandru cu fiecare curba pe care o iau accelerand. pentru o ora uit de consumul de benzina, de poluare, de permisul meu care e printr-un sertar in bucuresti, de orice urma de responsabilitate, de mine, de tot, in afara de culoarea ireala din centrul beculetelor albastre din oras.<br /><br />[imagine: Blue is the colour of peace by Rob234111]Casandrahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16945677765543141124noreply@blogger.com0